9th October 2013
she said not to quit.
Yesterday/today D’s housewarming party, 4th floor my dorm. It was a theme party, everyone had to dress elegant. I took some pictures then had some glasses of an unknown alcoholic mixture, hit my head really hard and felt really dizzy for the rest of the night.
Also, the super fantastic plan of getting J and A together finally succeeded, we lost them after a few hours.
I woke up in my friend’s bed at about 8 am, went home and then straight to classes.
7th October 2013
While I was gone (this time for various unimportant reasons), a lot of things happened. Here is a quick summary..
Failed the first year of college, lost faith, lost myself, tried to commit suicide.
There is no picture that could possibly describe the last few months of my life.
31st July 2013
Party at J’s yesterday/today, I am desperate for some sleep, still thinking about all the things that happened today. Spent the most amazing morning with a guy from Denmark but forgot his name. I think it starts with a A.
23rd July 2013
OK so a friend of mine sent me this link yesterday and I feel kind of weird/confused because there is a picture of me used on a random site I’ve never seen before. He said a friend sent it to him, asking if it’s me on the picture. Ughh I don’t know
Also, I’ve been listening this song for a while now. And I really like like it.
Work is horrible, I don’t want to show up anymore. I just want to disappear one day. The end of the month is close and I will have to go back to Ljubljana to study and every time I think about it I just start sobbing and I panic and stuff. This is so painful. I don’t want to do this anymore.
And we went to Sestiana Bay yesterday with K and her little sister.
15th July 2013
I know I’m only lvl 8, but I lost my pass for Nordic acc. I am a lost cause. So sad.
27/4/12 is quite good though.
Runing in Panovec again today, work in the morning and tomorrow again. Then I’m off to shopping and I have a photoshooting on Wednesday (as a model). The girl I’m going this for is a makeup artist and she also got me a hairdresser appointment. I feel so weird about this. I kind of feel like bailing everything because I think I might not be too good at posing for the camera. Ughhh
12nd July 2013
There is a drunk guy sitting 2seats away from me, holding a beer in one hand and loudly coughing every 3 minutes.
I am on a bus to Ljubljana, very tired and sleepy, my eyelashes feel so heavy. I can’t remember when was the last time I wore so much makeup. We are supposed to arrive at 10.06 pm.
I think he is sleeping now. The smell of the alcohol makes me sick.
10th July 2013
Trenta day 2 report: traveling around Soča valley all day plus swimming and I’m kind of sunburned. Amazing day! OK got to go play cards.
8th July 2013
Great day! Fell asleep by the river today. The water was too cold so no swimming. Also, went on a short trip to Soča river spring, up in the mountains. So so tired now, I can’t wait to go to bed. Watching a movie with a couple of friends atm.
8th July 2013
Helloooo summer clothes! I finally remembered why I like summer. You get to wear the cutest clothes. And you don’t always have to wear too much stuff.
Just got home from a workout with my friends at a local park called Panovec. I feel great, I love the feeling of the sweat running down my back. Bought some watermelon for dinner on the way home.
I already packed my backpack and we’re off to Trenta Valley tomorrow at 8 am. I’ll be back on Thursday and than directly to Ljubljana in a few hours for a birthday party at my neighbors’ place.